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Friday, November 18, 2011

letting go the past.

Here's some rules of life I discovered.
Rule 1#
Smile and you are happy.


Yes. Smile and you are happy. 
It's not you are happy and you smile.


Here's how it works.
Smile. Look at your friend. She smiles back at you, giving her very sincere smile. and then you shall be happy! :)
Do this to everyone.


I did this. I looked at my friend, and smile for no reason. and she showed me her weird look, but still she did smile. and the next moment we ended up laughing together. without any reason. not saying any words. :D


Rule 2# 
Frown and you'll be miserable.


No one likes people who likes to be sad. Compare a happy-go-lucky person and someone emotional. Who will you choose?


Here's one situation.


A: Aku sedih la.
B: Kenapa weh ko sedih?
A: Aku dah putus weh dengan dia. Padahal kitorang dah lama bersama. Dia janji sehidup semati dengan aku. Aku rasa sekarang dia je hidup. aku nak mati. tak sanggup aku dengan dugaan ni.
B: hoi, ko gila? jangan macam ni. banyak lagi kumbang kat luar sana tu. ko ni.. aku pun ada kan untuk ko.. ingat, ko still ada kawan, lagi2 cam aku (senyum ikhlas) :)
A: Tapi dia segala-galanya weh. ko tahu, roh aku macam dah takde, tinggal jasad je. aku tak sanggup hidup tanpa dia weh.
B: ko ni... jangan camni.....
A: Aku sedih ... hidup ni takde makne dah..
B: ko ni.. aku pun tak tahu nak cakap apa.
A: takpe lah, ko biar aku sendiri. aku nak berseorangan.
B: oke2. (lalu blahh)


Lalu si A ni makin sedih sebab kawan dia pun blaa. rasa macam takde orang kisah. rasa macam sorang2 je kat dunia ni..


Haaaa. Syaitan's got her. Macam2 dah hasut. nak sedih sangat lagi. layan lagi perasaan lebih2.


Okay. Not evidence is not solid enough. :D
Anyway. I don't really no how to pujuk orang yang sedih2 ni. 


But that doesn't have to do with the topic.
I've been a good actress this week, pretending I am okay. 
Trying hard to act..
as if there's nothing had happened between us.
as if I am totally independent and strong.
as if he never mean anything to me.


It was hard. and so many things reminded me of him. Little things I never take time to notice before.
Whatever. I should get over this soon.



‎"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do

[credits to Aini Aslah]



I wasn't his precious. Special friend? No. Friend? I don't know.
I know he might need some time to get over everything. So it's better to just keep quiet. 
But I wonder if this continue until we might became total strangers, one day in the future. 
I wasn't hoping for anything. I don't want to hope anymore. To you.


Letting go of the past. That is what I'm trying to you. 
Letting go of you. No. We can still be friend s.


Tak kisah lah. Matluthfi still ada :) 
Walaupun aku berangan je nak kahwin dengan dia.
HAHA takpe. persamaan korang dua-dua further ke Australia, cuma dia dah pergi dulu. 
*okay apasal tetiba matluthfi ni? 


aku tengok video terbaru dia. dan aku nak tengok semula malam ni, bila suasana sunyi dan surrounding gelap.

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